I know it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted, but hey here I am! Alive, breathing, mostly in one piece, and COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS! Saturday the 14th is, (Lord willing) my last day. After that, well, we know how it goes. I will, and I’m sure you will, pray pray pray that I heal well and don’t have to have surgery in the next few months!
So I want to back track to Christmas. I spent my Christmas home, thanks to your generosity and kindness, and it was exactly what I needed to refresh. While I was home my husband asked if we could watch, “It’s Wonderful Life”. Now I’m not gonna lie, when I saw that it was a black and white film, I totally fought him on it, insisting that it was doomed to be boring. Anyway, it was actually one of those films that hit me in a very unexpected way.
For those of you who haven’t seen the movie, well consider this your disclaimer. Basically it’s about this guy named George Bailey, stuff goes all wrong in his life and nothing goes as he planned. Hmmm sounds familiar already. So he gets to this point where things are out of control and he seriously thinks about just ending it all. Again, I relate! Anyway as he is about to jump off the bridge, an angel appears and takes him through what his life would be like if he didn’t exist. Does that make sense? George says that everyones life would be better without him so the angel shows what it truly would be like without him. It’s kind of a rad scene because there are so many details that you’d never even think about. Now I won’t walk you through the entire thing, you should just watch the movie, but I will say that after George sees how much his life affects everyone, he has a change of heart. He goes back to real life and is now joyful and grateful. There was this scenario where his Uncle lost all the money needed to keep their bank open and George is depressed thinking that he will never fix it, anyway when he goes back to real life, his wife had asked for the townspeople to help. They start coming in and setting any spare change they have on the table while George just stands there in awe. Phew! Okay that’s all I wanted to say about the movie, now we are all on the same page.
Now, there was a God ordained parallel happening between my life and the movie. As I watched George’s life become chaotic and out of control, I thought about the last 2 years of my life. How I had so many plans and how essentially my life got turned upside down. Then as George spiraled down, eventually finding himself standing at the edge of a bridge, I thought about the various times I stared at my pill bottle, or thought about driving my car into a tree, the times I thought it would be easier to just end it all.
But the next part, the part where George sees the impact his life has had, that part was really eye-opening for me. I mean just think about this for a second, your life has a ripple effect. I mean just try to imagine if you weren’t alive, if you never existed, what would be different? And if you can’t think of anything, ask the people around you. Your life is not just about you. You have an impact on every single person you meet. EVERYONE. It’s a ripple effect, it all matters. It’s kind of mind-blowing really. Life is so detailed and complex, and we could never plan any of it. God has woven purpose into every little detail of your life. I picture it like we all have a very unique color of, let’s say ink. Every time we interact with someone, whether it’s someone we know and love, the grocery clerk, the person you walk past and you make eye contact with, your kids, you leave a little bit of your color on them.
Stay with me here, let’s take the example of the person you pass on the street. If you take a moment to dissect just that simple interaction, it’s amazing! So you could have walked past that person and smiled at them, little did you know that they just had a family member die and they are just trying to hold it together. Since you were thoughtful about that small interaction, your smile made them smile, and since they were able to smile they I don’t know, it helped them feel something in that second. And who knows maybe they went home and told their Mom about it and she felt encouraged to reach out to her brother that she’s been fighting with and then they do something and on and on it goes and you have a ripple effect. I feel like I’m rambling, but I’m just amazed you guys! Our lives are NOT all about us, even if we try our hardest to make it that way. Every choice you make will have a far reaching impact. So make them count.
Lastly, as George stood there and watched his community come to his aid, I was standing there in my living room, staring at a once bare tree, watching it fill up with beautiful ornaments of encouragement, and I thought, “It’s a wonderful life.” Thank you!